Unpacking the Heart

I officially have one week until delivery, which seems unimaginable to me!  I am definitely getting more emotional about it, I had to really control myself in church this morning when a sweet lady asked me about things.  It is so bittersweet. These braxton hicks are so painful, my tailbone/sciatic nerve make it hard to walk, and my glucose has made this last week rough, but at the same time, I know that these are the last few days I have of ever being pregnant...the last kicks, rolls, and stretches from baby.  This is definitely a hard turning point in life. Up until now, everything has been a new exciting season of firsts, or happy things, this is the first season change where I have truly felt sadness and pain.  I say all of this, which is all true, and comes from the depths of my soul, but at the same time I know how  blessed I have been and cannot express how thankful I am for this passing season.  This weekend I spoke with three beautiful women, two ...

I am not even sure where to begin today.  I missed posting last week because of life/traveling/excuses, but I want to make sure I am documenting the end of this pregnancy.  Every time I remind myself that it is the end of the pregnancy I get all hormonal and weepy.  Knowing this is our last baby is killing me, even though I know it is for the best.  Maybe one day we can foster or adopt, which is a dream of mine, but knowing I will never feel these little (big) kicks and squirms is hard to let go of.  Even though I am getting to the difficult days I still don't want to tell myself that I am ready for this to be over, because in many ways, I'm not.  I feel like I hardly remember last week as it seems so long ago.  I do remember that I went to the doctor twice, and that baby boy is still doing just fine.  Last week was also dance recital week and Elliott was such a beautiful ballerina!  She really is a natural at dance and is super graceful on...

We have hit 35 weeks...I think?  I feel like I have lost track.  haha.   We will have another ultrasound to measure his growth in a couple of weeks, but basically he is in there just gaining a little chub before his appearance.  He has passed all of his BPPs with flying colors.  This last week his hands, feet, umbilical cord and my placenta were in front of his face, so we didn't get to see much of that cute profile, but he was thrilled to show off his boy parts.  Typical.  I have finally made a blanket for him, the hat with his name is done, pack and play is up, clothes are ready and we have ordered one or two things for the house that we need.  We are in our final prep stages for him and for the rest of our lives that has to be taken care of before his arrival.  My OCD is in full swing and I need all the things clean and organized, but my large pregnant self can only work for a little bit before needing a break.  It is very anno...