Happy Birthday
Today is my birthday and I totally did the mature thing and deleted off of FB a few days ago and took away everyone's ability to post on my wall...seems reasonable. I have always loved my birthday, I still do, but this year something feels....different. Maybe it is that I am getting older, maybe it is because my anxiety/depression has a little more of a hold on me, maybe it is because I really just want to hear from those who truly love and care for me. Being a pastor's wife is hard. There are always many people around, but it is still incredibly lonely. Most faces are acquaintances, or polite at a distance, but aren't interested in any deeper of a relationship. Some care but feel that the differences in age, or life stages, is too vast. Those that are near my age and life stage have their own friends and family that live nearby...it is very hard to break into those circles. Tack onto that I am an introvert with confidence issues...and remember the anxiety...I am sl